I know if a good friend of mine knew what was going on with me right now what he'd say.... He'd say "It's going to be alright" but honestly I can't see how that's going to come to pass right now. Am I just suppose to hold onto this forever and act like it didn't happen like the government does with the BP spill or a bunch of other things? That's not going to get me anywhere. It's just going to damage my soul more in the end. I just don't know what to do... It's so hard to get my mind off of this. I've tried to keep my mind off of it for so long that now it seems there is no holding back. -sighs- I don't know what to do.