For the past two months I've thought of taking my own life nearly everyday because of him. I am done with it. He's never once apologized to me for all the shit he's ever done to me. I at least had the decency to apologize to him about Skyler. I am done feeling like I want to kill myself over someone who has such a total disregard for my feelings and doesn't even seem to give a shit in the slightest about how I feel. No mater how much I still am in love with him at this point I will never accept him back because I deserve better than this shit. Whether it be a friend or my husband. I am done with you. You've lost your chance love.