It's too easy to loose faith in myself these days. I've fallen behind and my time here is going to be coming to an end in a few months. Elskie will be moving on. Gaston has had talks of moving out to Rockwood. There is no way in hell I would ever live in Rockwood. That's worse than felony flats. I need to get my shit together. Enough of this. I feel like I'm getting dragged down. I feel almost helpless. How am I suppose to find work when I have no one to watch Michelle?  Oi.